am i a bad person?

last night all i dreamt about was sex...very strange to wake up and remember what happened....

also, i ordered a copy of sex for one from amazon and its coming in 4-6 weeks, 8 at the most. im kinda excited and kinda not. i think that it was not such a good idea. what am i going to say when my mum wants to know what i bought? i bourght another book to put in its place when it arrives...is that bad of me?

i bought some little white pots the other day and i yesterday i got some flowers for them. hopefully they live! lol. also pretty and pink is my vibrator.

i still feel bad about ordering the sex book. i guess ill have to worry about that when it comes in the mail. i also get fear of flying, which should be good.

am i spending too much time thinking about sex and me and masturbation? is this bad or wrong? im a little confused. i want to be happy with myself but im not sure if this is the right thing to be doing......

i joined my local fire brigade the other week and last night we had training and i got to ride in the back of the truck and skirt the hose. it was heaps of fun! and i got all new gear like a helmut and bright yellow overalls. should be lots of fun and the ppl are good too.

ok thats all for now. im going to exercise or read or something.

hope you all are warm and happy.

oh, im going out tonight cos one of my close friends is moving to china and its her last night out on the town...hopefully it is good :) ill let you know...

xoo