hey guys, guess what?!?! i paid a visit to my local sex store (is that PC? lol) and yes i walked outta there with a vibrator (discreetly packaged in a brown paper bag! lol) so you will be very soon reading about adventures with my new pink and beautiful toy!
xxoo
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
today is the day...
today is the day i have built up enough courage (and cash lol) to go out and buy a vibrator. i have decided on the relatively cheap 'my first vibe'. its purple i think and made for first timers like me :) i could save up more money and get something more extravagant but...i dont know if i like it yet, so im going to get the 29.95 one, hehe. i found a store that is close to me and hopefuly i wont see anyone i know, cos that would be weird. maybe ill just survey the scene today and see if its all clear and head back another day. i was going to go today cos i have an excuse to be out for a long period of time so i dont have to make something up about where im going...although i do need to go to the chemist.
this toy purhase is purely to enhance my self love techniques and enjoyment, and if i cum...well, ill be over the moon to say the least, but i dont expect it to happen for a while...like, a long while. no pressure eh suze!
so i will let you know how it all goes, so watch out for my first toy review lol!
moving on to other matters, when i bourght my new car they sent me out a gift cirtificate for a $550 photoshoot, which i thought was really nice, so today i am going down to see the photo ppl and talk about what i want....this could be interesting as im not overly creative or original, but hey, they are the experts and should be able to help! :P
so, ill also keep you posted on those matters too.
oh, last night i went and taught my first swimming lesson in like 2 months, it was soo good. there were two twin boys, and they were gorgeous! they had white blonde hair, chubby cheeks and beautiful white straight baby teeth. im teaching them again next week, so it will be good to see them again.
i taught four classes and they were mostly pretty good. one kid didnt listen to what i want saying and so i made him sit out while he waited for his turn to swim. he was pretty good after that. he was just really eager to please but kept forgetting my rules. he might be better next time.
im teaching on friday aswell, so that will be good. cant wait to get paid...$18.10 an hour is not bad, more than what i get at my other job! lol.
so, id better get ready for my photo consultation thing.
thanks for commenting guys, you support means the world to me.
have fun and be good!
xxoo
this toy purhase is purely to enhance my self love techniques and enjoyment, and if i cum...well, ill be over the moon to say the least, but i dont expect it to happen for a while...like, a long while. no pressure eh suze!
so i will let you know how it all goes, so watch out for my first toy review lol!
moving on to other matters, when i bourght my new car they sent me out a gift cirtificate for a $550 photoshoot, which i thought was really nice, so today i am going down to see the photo ppl and talk about what i want....this could be interesting as im not overly creative or original, but hey, they are the experts and should be able to help! :P
so, ill also keep you posted on those matters too.
oh, last night i went and taught my first swimming lesson in like 2 months, it was soo good. there were two twin boys, and they were gorgeous! they had white blonde hair, chubby cheeks and beautiful white straight baby teeth. im teaching them again next week, so it will be good to see them again.
i taught four classes and they were mostly pretty good. one kid didnt listen to what i want saying and so i made him sit out while he waited for his turn to swim. he was pretty good after that. he was just really eager to please but kept forgetting my rules. he might be better next time.
im teaching on friday aswell, so that will be good. cant wait to get paid...$18.10 an hour is not bad, more than what i get at my other job! lol.
so, id better get ready for my photo consultation thing.
thanks for commenting guys, you support means the world to me.
have fun and be good!
xxoo
Monday, January 29, 2007
three days into blogging and i already feel more liberated and free, funny how that happens eh?
i have soo much i could put here, and i have a bunch of ideas so they will hopefully come to life soon.
i got a brazilian wax today, it hurt soooo bad. i think i bleed a little. the weather was pretty warm and the wax was just sticking to my skin, rather than being ripped off, it was quite painful. but the beautician was very good and really easy to chat too, so that helped a little. it has never hurt that much b4. i got a bit lazy and let the hair grow a bit too long but i have since learnt my lesson and now i am booked in in four weeks so this experience is not repeated.
ive been thinking about my recent lesbian adventure. im not sure how i feel about it. i dont regret it, i wouldnt have done it if i didnt want to.
she initiated the contact. she kinda cornered me and said i want to kiss you, can i? at first i said no, cos i was scared and i didnt think she was serious. but she seemed sincere. she is the kind of person that gets what they want, when they want, i think mostly from guys and girls in the physical sense. she was pretty persuasive and believable when she said she wanted me.
i kinda agreed cos i was flattered and she wouldnt take no for an answer.
the focus was on her because it kinda gave me the power to direct what went on. i could go or stop because it was my hand at play, you know? she also had long finger nails and that was a bit painful. she didnt really know what to do either, and im not saying im an expert but she didnt really have much of an idea.
so, i didnt mind that i didnt really get much of the attention. when im with a guy the focus is usually on me, and its all about how i feel and what i want. so it was different to be on the otherside of that. although i think cocks arent the prettiest things on the planet, i certainly enjoy how they feel. my last bf had trouble cumming when someone was giving him head and he said that i was pretty good at it, so i would like the try that again some time and see if i could make a guy cum by giving head.
i also want to cum. i never have. i chicken out. its something im still working on. its a little tricky without a bf. i masturbate quite often, but i dont cum, i find it relaxing and often do it b4 going to sleep. im interested in buying a vibrator but im too scared to go to a store or order one on the net, cos my mum picks up the mail, that would be tricky to explain why i got a package but didnt get anything! lol. so yeah, im still working on that. there are plenty of stores around my area but i dont want to get recognised.
i really want cock...like now. i dont go out that much, so that makes it kinda tricky to meet prospective partners, ill wait till uni goes back and see if their are any ppl there. ill let you know how it goes.
i think my next post will be about all my firsts, so that should be interesting. hope u enjoy it! and id love to hear about any of your sexual adventures.
i have soo much i could put here, and i have a bunch of ideas so they will hopefully come to life soon.
i got a brazilian wax today, it hurt soooo bad. i think i bleed a little. the weather was pretty warm and the wax was just sticking to my skin, rather than being ripped off, it was quite painful. but the beautician was very good and really easy to chat too, so that helped a little. it has never hurt that much b4. i got a bit lazy and let the hair grow a bit too long but i have since learnt my lesson and now i am booked in in four weeks so this experience is not repeated.
ive been thinking about my recent lesbian adventure. im not sure how i feel about it. i dont regret it, i wouldnt have done it if i didnt want to.
she initiated the contact. she kinda cornered me and said i want to kiss you, can i? at first i said no, cos i was scared and i didnt think she was serious. but she seemed sincere. she is the kind of person that gets what they want, when they want, i think mostly from guys and girls in the physical sense. she was pretty persuasive and believable when she said she wanted me.
i kinda agreed cos i was flattered and she wouldnt take no for an answer.
the focus was on her because it kinda gave me the power to direct what went on. i could go or stop because it was my hand at play, you know? she also had long finger nails and that was a bit painful. she didnt really know what to do either, and im not saying im an expert but she didnt really have much of an idea.
so, i didnt mind that i didnt really get much of the attention. when im with a guy the focus is usually on me, and its all about how i feel and what i want. so it was different to be on the otherside of that. although i think cocks arent the prettiest things on the planet, i certainly enjoy how they feel. my last bf had trouble cumming when someone was giving him head and he said that i was pretty good at it, so i would like the try that again some time and see if i could make a guy cum by giving head.
i also want to cum. i never have. i chicken out. its something im still working on. its a little tricky without a bf. i masturbate quite often, but i dont cum, i find it relaxing and often do it b4 going to sleep. im interested in buying a vibrator but im too scared to go to a store or order one on the net, cos my mum picks up the mail, that would be tricky to explain why i got a package but didnt get anything! lol. so yeah, im still working on that. there are plenty of stores around my area but i dont want to get recognised.
i really want cock...like now. i dont go out that much, so that makes it kinda tricky to meet prospective partners, ill wait till uni goes back and see if their are any ppl there. ill let you know how it goes.
i think my next post will be about all my firsts, so that should be interesting. hope u enjoy it! and id love to hear about any of your sexual adventures.
thanks
hey, its kinda late but i just want to say thanks to ppl for putting some comments on my blog, really made it worthwile. hopefully i will put some more stuff on here soon, so please keep visiting and giving me advice :) uni is going back soon so hopefully i will be able to keep you up to date with that.
thanks again. night...
thanks again. night...
Sunday, January 28, 2007
the first...of many things
the other night i had my first real lesbian experience. it was good but i still cant get over the feeling over a hardened cock rubbing against my tingling clit, nothing beats that. she was sweet, great body, not too bad at kissing, ive had better. she smokes, so it wasnt the best. she seems quite young and innocent, or so it seemed. it was an eye opening experience. i havent fingered someone else b4. i had it done to me and i know what it feels like to do it to myself, but not on someone else. its quite tricky. because she is writhing around and moaning and clearly enjoying it but i dont know where it feels good or if she likes it a different way...i guess i just found out what it feels like to be a guy lol. she was quite obliging when i asked her to do stuff. i lay her down on the bed upstairs and shut the door, i slid my hand down her tight jeans, after undoing the fly and button. they were very tight, and shaped her arse beautifully, but it made it difficult to access her wet pussy. i told her to take her jeans off and she did. she apologised for not shaving her cunt, but i didnt mind and i told her so. ive kissed girls b4 and ive talked about being with other chicks with my ex. it got him off and i kinda enjoyed the thrill of talking baout something so dirty. i like kinky dirty things. i like being bossy and demanding. i love the urgency in my partners voice when i deny them something, or tease them.
one time, out the front of my house, i was with my ex-bf and we were kissing and stuff. he wanted to finger me and i was really wet. i didnt let him. he was soooo hard and he begged me to grab his cock, i must have reacted too slow cos he grabbed my hand and shoved it down his pants and around his throbbing cock. i loved being with him. he was very good at what he did but i freak out when i feel a bit out of control, so sometimes i would bring our 'sessions' to a grinding halt when i felt scared.
anyway, i finger fucked this girl. my hand kinda hurt so pulled it out so i swap and she begged my to keep going "please dont stop" she moaned. she was breathing quickly and was almost squealing with delight. i felt kinda powerful. i like that feeling too. when you brush your hand across some guys cock and you hear him inhale sharply. i love that power. i love teasing. i love it when he went down on me. it was sooo good. he fingered my for ages. pumping in and out. i knew i was getting closer to orgasm because my hands had pins and needles. then my neck and ears began to tingle too. then the tingling pins and needles feeling spread across my stomach and i freaked out. i couldnt handle it. i felt out of control and i didnt like it. so i asked him to stop and he did after he threatened to keep going. he was determined to get me off but i couldnt relax and enjoy it.
im not sure how i feel about girls. i would never right off guys as potentials. i dont think i could be a complete lesbian and have no male contact. i love the power they have over me. in a second they could take what they want purely because of the muscle strength they possess. i enjoyed my time with the girl, but i didnt get off. i like thinking baout it but not acting on it. im not sure if it will happen again. maybe....we'll see i guess. i think maybe she wants to. and i guess i could do it again...i would rather get laid....but im not sure about that either. im psyching myself up to see my ex-bf in three weeks at uni. i havent seen him since b4 christmas so it will be interesting to have the same lects as him again...i wonder if he will come back to uni...anyway, thats another kettle of fish. i lost my virginity to him and he didnt love me at the time. he said he didnt. but then he grew to love me, and i kinda slowly stopped loving him...then he stopped loving me and we broke up. he wasnt man enough to stand up and say how he felt. so i kinda did the breaking up and that hurt. i really liked him and i wanted it to work but i guess it wasnt meant to be. i knew he would be my first after seeing him at uni for a while. there arent many guys in my course, so he wasnt hard to spot. after watching him for a while i felt confident that he would be my first. then he started talking to me, we had a few tuts together. then we decided to have coffee one night after class. he walked me to my car a couple of times. so we had coffee and sat and talked for ages, then as he went to leave we kissed and it was a really good kiss. i havent had many good ones like that. so yeah, we hung out a bit. i msged him to see if he wanted to catch up that weekend and he was going to a party and invited me along. i agreed and off we went. i was meant to drive home after we got back to his place but we went to bed and i didnt end up leaving til 7 the next morning. i managed to stay awake for 26 hours! quite an effort. i saw him at uni and a week later we were official. it lasted about 2 months in total b4 he decided he didnt like me anymore. i was pretty upset and cried my eyes out in mcdonalds while i waited for my mum to pick me up. we broke up on the way home from a footy match, so i got him to drop me off at maccas so i didnt have to stay in the car any longer than i had to.
so yeah, good to get all that off my chest.
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one time, out the front of my house, i was with my ex-bf and we were kissing and stuff. he wanted to finger me and i was really wet. i didnt let him. he was soooo hard and he begged me to grab his cock, i must have reacted too slow cos he grabbed my hand and shoved it down his pants and around his throbbing cock. i loved being with him. he was very good at what he did but i freak out when i feel a bit out of control, so sometimes i would bring our 'sessions' to a grinding halt when i felt scared.
anyway, i finger fucked this girl. my hand kinda hurt so pulled it out so i swap and she begged my to keep going "please dont stop" she moaned. she was breathing quickly and was almost squealing with delight. i felt kinda powerful. i like that feeling too. when you brush your hand across some guys cock and you hear him inhale sharply. i love that power. i love teasing. i love it when he went down on me. it was sooo good. he fingered my for ages. pumping in and out. i knew i was getting closer to orgasm because my hands had pins and needles. then my neck and ears began to tingle too. then the tingling pins and needles feeling spread across my stomach and i freaked out. i couldnt handle it. i felt out of control and i didnt like it. so i asked him to stop and he did after he threatened to keep going. he was determined to get me off but i couldnt relax and enjoy it.
im not sure how i feel about girls. i would never right off guys as potentials. i dont think i could be a complete lesbian and have no male contact. i love the power they have over me. in a second they could take what they want purely because of the muscle strength they possess. i enjoyed my time with the girl, but i didnt get off. i like thinking baout it but not acting on it. im not sure if it will happen again. maybe....we'll see i guess. i think maybe she wants to. and i guess i could do it again...i would rather get laid....but im not sure about that either. im psyching myself up to see my ex-bf in three weeks at uni. i havent seen him since b4 christmas so it will be interesting to have the same lects as him again...i wonder if he will come back to uni...anyway, thats another kettle of fish. i lost my virginity to him and he didnt love me at the time. he said he didnt. but then he grew to love me, and i kinda slowly stopped loving him...then he stopped loving me and we broke up. he wasnt man enough to stand up and say how he felt. so i kinda did the breaking up and that hurt. i really liked him and i wanted it to work but i guess it wasnt meant to be. i knew he would be my first after seeing him at uni for a while. there arent many guys in my course, so he wasnt hard to spot. after watching him for a while i felt confident that he would be my first. then he started talking to me, we had a few tuts together. then we decided to have coffee one night after class. he walked me to my car a couple of times. so we had coffee and sat and talked for ages, then as he went to leave we kissed and it was a really good kiss. i havent had many good ones like that. so yeah, we hung out a bit. i msged him to see if he wanted to catch up that weekend and he was going to a party and invited me along. i agreed and off we went. i was meant to drive home after we got back to his place but we went to bed and i didnt end up leaving til 7 the next morning. i managed to stay awake for 26 hours! quite an effort. i saw him at uni and a week later we were official. it lasted about 2 months in total b4 he decided he didnt like me anymore. i was pretty upset and cried my eyes out in mcdonalds while i waited for my mum to pick me up. we broke up on the way home from a footy match, so i got him to drop me off at maccas so i didnt have to stay in the car any longer than i had to.
so yeah, good to get all that off my chest.
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