hey everybody, i was reading AAG's comments and came across soccer dad's blog...i'll post his url so you can check out his blog. he sent me some questions to answer. If you want me to do that same, leave a comment with your email and ill send you five questions.
1) Which TV family would you best fit in with and why?
The Simpsons. my mum is always saying that. we have the same number of ppl and stuff and even tho we fight sometimes we all love each other to death, we are a team and we stick to together.
2) Do you have someone you miss more than anyone elsein life?
well...i dont miss anyone at the mo, but if my anyone of my immediate family died, i think i would need sedation.
3) What part of your body can someone touch and makeyou melt?
mmm this is kinda tricky...i like soft almost tickling fingers across my stomach. sort of in a swirling motions, just back and forth. i also like kisses on my neck but not in my ear!
4) Is there intelligent life on other planets? Whatabout Canada?
i dont think there are other planets like ours...i havent been to canada lol, but im planning on going in early January if i can get it organised. Im waiting for a mate to get a job there so i know where im going lol.
5) Bath or Shower?
showers are good...havent had a shower with someone else, but i think i would like too. baths are good after a long day at work.
so there you go, now you all know a little bit more about me.
xo
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Monday, August 27, 2007
procrastination
hey everybody, hows it going?
i should be doing an assignment but i thought id blog something instead.
well..its been a while since i got any action but im ok with that.
i went to a gay bar last night and played bingo. Two drag queens were running the night. it went ok. i dont really like drag queens or really queeny gay guys, not really my thing. i dont have any thing against gay ppl, just drama queens.
anyway, im working on an assignment for uni about ethical decisions and nursing. i cant really get a handle on it....a mate from uni is helping me, which is good or else id be up shit creek! her mum is a nurse, so i think that helps her a bit.
im waiting for a book to come in from America to help with the assignment, i think its coming tomorrow. hopefully its useful.
the weather is really nice here. its been gorgeous the last couple of days. really sunny and warm. lovely spring weather.
im planning on going to canada and china at beginning of next year to visit some friends...i need to get oraganised with that or else all the flights will be really expensive and stuff.
i should back to work...i have to go to work at 3.
ttfn.
xoxox
i should be doing an assignment but i thought id blog something instead.
well..its been a while since i got any action but im ok with that.
i went to a gay bar last night and played bingo. Two drag queens were running the night. it went ok. i dont really like drag queens or really queeny gay guys, not really my thing. i dont have any thing against gay ppl, just drama queens.
anyway, im working on an assignment for uni about ethical decisions and nursing. i cant really get a handle on it....a mate from uni is helping me, which is good or else id be up shit creek! her mum is a nurse, so i think that helps her a bit.
im waiting for a book to come in from America to help with the assignment, i think its coming tomorrow. hopefully its useful.
the weather is really nice here. its been gorgeous the last couple of days. really sunny and warm. lovely spring weather.
im planning on going to canada and china at beginning of next year to visit some friends...i need to get oraganised with that or else all the flights will be really expensive and stuff.
i should back to work...i have to go to work at 3.
ttfn.
xoxox
Friday, August 10, 2007
still learning....
hey, wow, its been another dry spell from blogging, which is disappointing but i've been really busy with uni and stuff.
so, a little update, i have now slept with 4 guys. The 4th was on a uni trip at the snow, the sex was average and he ignored me the whole next day, which was disapointing. i kinda like this guy and was hoping to get something out of it, well more that sex. but he wasnt interested in me that way, probably because of my dismal performance in the bed room....well, actualy it wasnt that bad. it turns out i give great head, which he really enjoyed. He went down on me but it wasnt so good. i guess i wasnt realy comfortable enough. i have an intense fear of losing my underwear and stuff. and i wasnt super comfortable in the situation so i couldnt realy relax into what he was doing and enjoy and possible orgasm (which still hasnt happened). so yeah, no good really. he did make me brekkie the next morning and walked me to my lodge but after that, he barely said two words. oh well.
so the next night spent some 'alone time' with a different guy. we were drinking beer and sharing a chair and he suggested we go back to the lodge, so i agreed cos i was drunk and enjoyed the attention. so we went back into his room, light went off and so did his pants.
i gave him head and again, got some positive feedback. i decided not to fuck him, cos i made that mistake already. I was teasing him and stuff and he came twice on my tits, which i love and he called me a dirty girl, which wa cool too. im realy into that sort of thing, a bit of submission and stuff. i wouldnt be tied up or whipped or anything. just someone being demanding and asking for what they want. mmm, so he kinda ignored me too. i tried to discuss with him about whether or not he would ignore the next day but it was a silly thing to talk about and should have kept it to myself.
so i kinda want to be mates with this guy...but i dont think he wants to be friends.
ive been thinking about what it takes to be someone's friend and how you get to the status of being friends. so, im kinda working on making friends with ppl and see how it all works. sounds like a dorky thing to do, but i would really like more friends.
oh yeah, my best friend told me about her 'terrible' sex. foreplay lasted 3 hours and sex lasted for an hour! all i get is three pumps and a squirt! and she orgasmed and said it was terrible. i was kinda jealous of her at that point for being able to orgasm and i cant. but she is a little more promiscuis than me, which is something i dont want to change.
i think one one-night-stand is enough, and now im going to work on building relationships, not just having sex. i want to save the most inimate parts of myself for my husband. Things like orgasms and being totally naked. When im with a guy im never totally naked, i always have something on, so i can quickly cover myself if i need to or something.
thats really all i have to say.
Leave a comment if you get the chance :)
so, a little update, i have now slept with 4 guys. The 4th was on a uni trip at the snow, the sex was average and he ignored me the whole next day, which was disapointing. i kinda like this guy and was hoping to get something out of it, well more that sex. but he wasnt interested in me that way, probably because of my dismal performance in the bed room....well, actualy it wasnt that bad. it turns out i give great head, which he really enjoyed. He went down on me but it wasnt so good. i guess i wasnt realy comfortable enough. i have an intense fear of losing my underwear and stuff. and i wasnt super comfortable in the situation so i couldnt realy relax into what he was doing and enjoy and possible orgasm (which still hasnt happened). so yeah, no good really. he did make me brekkie the next morning and walked me to my lodge but after that, he barely said two words. oh well.
so the next night spent some 'alone time' with a different guy. we were drinking beer and sharing a chair and he suggested we go back to the lodge, so i agreed cos i was drunk and enjoyed the attention. so we went back into his room, light went off and so did his pants.
i gave him head and again, got some positive feedback. i decided not to fuck him, cos i made that mistake already. I was teasing him and stuff and he came twice on my tits, which i love and he called me a dirty girl, which wa cool too. im realy into that sort of thing, a bit of submission and stuff. i wouldnt be tied up or whipped or anything. just someone being demanding and asking for what they want. mmm, so he kinda ignored me too. i tried to discuss with him about whether or not he would ignore the next day but it was a silly thing to talk about and should have kept it to myself.
so i kinda want to be mates with this guy...but i dont think he wants to be friends.
ive been thinking about what it takes to be someone's friend and how you get to the status of being friends. so, im kinda working on making friends with ppl and see how it all works. sounds like a dorky thing to do, but i would really like more friends.
oh yeah, my best friend told me about her 'terrible' sex. foreplay lasted 3 hours and sex lasted for an hour! all i get is three pumps and a squirt! and she orgasmed and said it was terrible. i was kinda jealous of her at that point for being able to orgasm and i cant. but she is a little more promiscuis than me, which is something i dont want to change.
i think one one-night-stand is enough, and now im going to work on building relationships, not just having sex. i want to save the most inimate parts of myself for my husband. Things like orgasms and being totally naked. When im with a guy im never totally naked, i always have something on, so i can quickly cover myself if i need to or something.
thats really all i have to say.
Leave a comment if you get the chance :)
Thursday, June 14, 2007
update
hey, i havent written in ages because i have been busy with uni and work and studying and stuff like that.
i was with a guy for about 2 months but it didnt go anywhere because he was only using me for sex and the sex was really terrible. i gave him good head tho. he really liked it. turns out im pretty good at it, which is a plus. too bad i couldnt say the same about him because he didnt go near my cunt with his tongue, which is disappointing.
he was 25 and so thats a bit older than me so it was never going to work.
i had two exams today and they were really hard. i didnt know a lot of the answers. there was a drug calculations one and there wasnt realy enough time. you had to answer 40 questions in 30 mins really. it was hard. some ppl didnt finish.
i have to work tomorrow, im not realy looking forward to it because the baker is realy weird and says stuff like "oh do you have a nurses outfit?" and stuff, its basically sexualy harrassment but what can you do? the manager knows and told him to take it easy but he doesnt really get it.
im kinda horny but i dont want a one night stand.
i wanna go out drinking with the girls but i dont have anyone to go with, which is a little depressing. dunno what to do about that.
i spoke to my ex today. he is such an arsehole. i really dont like him. i look at him and my stomach gets all weird, i seriously feel physically ill when i look at him. i spoke today tho, weird.
thats really all i have to say....
i was with a guy for about 2 months but it didnt go anywhere because he was only using me for sex and the sex was really terrible. i gave him good head tho. he really liked it. turns out im pretty good at it, which is a plus. too bad i couldnt say the same about him because he didnt go near my cunt with his tongue, which is disappointing.
he was 25 and so thats a bit older than me so it was never going to work.
i had two exams today and they were really hard. i didnt know a lot of the answers. there was a drug calculations one and there wasnt realy enough time. you had to answer 40 questions in 30 mins really. it was hard. some ppl didnt finish.
i have to work tomorrow, im not realy looking forward to it because the baker is realy weird and says stuff like "oh do you have a nurses outfit?" and stuff, its basically sexualy harrassment but what can you do? the manager knows and told him to take it easy but he doesnt really get it.
im kinda horny but i dont want a one night stand.
i wanna go out drinking with the girls but i dont have anyone to go with, which is a little depressing. dunno what to do about that.
i spoke to my ex today. he is such an arsehole. i really dont like him. i look at him and my stomach gets all weird, i seriously feel physically ill when i look at him. i spoke today tho, weird.
thats really all i have to say....
Thursday, February 15, 2007
need some action!!
im getting ansty. i need some action. some postive male attention. i want to be desired, admired and longed after.
im off to do some shopping
ttfn
im off to do some shopping
ttfn
grrr
some ppl are soo hard headed and set in their ways that they cant accept or receive new ideas from ppl even if the ideas are right and they are wrong.
boys are cute and i like them.
rain is awesome and it rained heaps today, so i did the immature thing and stood in the rain in a pink dress that went see-through. it was heaps of fun and somthing i havent done in a long time (stupid drought!)
so yeah, i dont think i will pursue lesbian encounters anymore...boys are better and there are few cuties around atm....at work and stuff, i dont think anything will happen, but there is nothing wrong with wishful thinking! lol
there is a guy at work who is nice and says hi, but i wont be working for a while so i wont get to see him...i just want to have a random getting with, i couldnt handle a relationship atm, too fried and stuffed from the last one and uni is going to be full on this year! wish me luck! lol.
at the CPR course i did tonight i happened to know more than most of the ppl there and some stuff the teacher didnt know cos im a nursing student, and it was frustrating to have to keep my mouth shut when i knew the answers. i hate doing that, especially when i know im right!
i love being right and knowing the answers. i have a good memory too so that helps. some ppl suffer a bit from tall poppy syndrome and are intimidated by my good marks, easy understanding and dedication to stufff. i cant help but work hard. i only have two settings off and on, no in between of 'yeah, ill just plod along and get mediocre grades'. i have to be getting A's or nothing. it can be frustrating.
last semester at uni i went to every lecture. i think i missed like 3 for the whole semester and i was really proud of that, i ended up get 92% for one of the subjects.
anyway, my arms and hands are cramping up from typing so fast....hope you all are well. leave a comment please.
xxoo
boys are cute and i like them.
rain is awesome and it rained heaps today, so i did the immature thing and stood in the rain in a pink dress that went see-through. it was heaps of fun and somthing i havent done in a long time (stupid drought!)
so yeah, i dont think i will pursue lesbian encounters anymore...boys are better and there are few cuties around atm....at work and stuff, i dont think anything will happen, but there is nothing wrong with wishful thinking! lol
there is a guy at work who is nice and says hi, but i wont be working for a while so i wont get to see him...i just want to have a random getting with, i couldnt handle a relationship atm, too fried and stuffed from the last one and uni is going to be full on this year! wish me luck! lol.
at the CPR course i did tonight i happened to know more than most of the ppl there and some stuff the teacher didnt know cos im a nursing student, and it was frustrating to have to keep my mouth shut when i knew the answers. i hate doing that, especially when i know im right!
i love being right and knowing the answers. i have a good memory too so that helps. some ppl suffer a bit from tall poppy syndrome and are intimidated by my good marks, easy understanding and dedication to stufff. i cant help but work hard. i only have two settings off and on, no in between of 'yeah, ill just plod along and get mediocre grades'. i have to be getting A's or nothing. it can be frustrating.
last semester at uni i went to every lecture. i think i missed like 3 for the whole semester and i was really proud of that, i ended up get 92% for one of the subjects.
anyway, my arms and hands are cramping up from typing so fast....hope you all are well. leave a comment please.
xxoo
Monday, February 12, 2007
peace
hey, hows it going?
im pretty good. i feel really peaceful about going back to uni and seeing my ex. im ready, im over him, im confident within my own skin and im ready to take on the world. its a good feeling. it came after i read a book about four girls who were going through a situation similar to mine and so it was good therapy in a way, reading about how they got through it all.
it took me a long tiime to get over my ex, cos he was my first i guess. we werent together very long but it hurt when we broke up. he was a bit weak and didnt do the breaking, i did, which was tough.
ive found new confidence to trust myself and i dont need others to validate how i feel and make me feel worthy, which has taken a long time to develop. i've also had to work through being confident enough to stand up for what i believe in even if im the only one who feels that way. you know what i mean?
anyway, i feel pretty good about quite a few things. the photos i got done tho didnt turn out the way i wanted and i was disappointed about that i nearly cried, but i held that in and told the photographer i didnt like his pictures, which was a good feeling. i could tell him exactly how i felt without worrying about his feelings, its his job to expect critisism and disappointment.
im not sure where i will go to get the photo i want. i think my dad is going to do it....im a bit iffy...anyway. more important things to worry about.
xxoo
im pretty good. i feel really peaceful about going back to uni and seeing my ex. im ready, im over him, im confident within my own skin and im ready to take on the world. its a good feeling. it came after i read a book about four girls who were going through a situation similar to mine and so it was good therapy in a way, reading about how they got through it all.
it took me a long tiime to get over my ex, cos he was my first i guess. we werent together very long but it hurt when we broke up. he was a bit weak and didnt do the breaking, i did, which was tough.
ive found new confidence to trust myself and i dont need others to validate how i feel and make me feel worthy, which has taken a long time to develop. i've also had to work through being confident enough to stand up for what i believe in even if im the only one who feels that way. you know what i mean?
anyway, i feel pretty good about quite a few things. the photos i got done tho didnt turn out the way i wanted and i was disappointed about that i nearly cried, but i held that in and told the photographer i didnt like his pictures, which was a good feeling. i could tell him exactly how i felt without worrying about his feelings, its his job to expect critisism and disappointment.
im not sure where i will go to get the photo i want. i think my dad is going to do it....im a bit iffy...anyway. more important things to worry about.
xxoo
Thursday, February 8, 2007
am i a bad person?
last night all i dreamt about was sex...very strange to wake up and remember what happened....
also, i ordered a copy of sex for one from amazon and its coming in 4-6 weeks, 8 at the most. im kinda excited and kinda not. i think that it was not such a good idea. what am i going to say when my mum wants to know what i bought? i bourght another book to put in its place when it arrives...is that bad of me?
i bought some little white pots the other day and i yesterday i got some flowers for them. hopefully they live! lol. also pretty and pink is my vibrator.
i still feel bad about ordering the sex book. i guess ill have to worry about that when it comes in the mail. i also get fear of flying, which should be good.
am i spending too much time thinking about sex and me and masturbation? is this bad or wrong? im a little confused. i want to be happy with myself but im not sure if this is the right thing to be doing......
i joined my local fire brigade the other week and last night we had training and i got to ride in the back of the truck and skirt the hose. it was heaps of fun! and i got all new gear like a helmut and bright yellow overalls. should be lots of fun and the ppl are good too.
ok thats all for now. im going to exercise or read or something.
hope you all are warm and happy.
oh, im going out tonight cos one of my close friends is moving to china and its her last night out on the town...hopefully it is good :) ill let you know...
xoo
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
all about my toy
aloha fellow bloggers!!
where do i start? i have used my pink vibrator about 4 or 5 times since i bought it, which is like once a day! i particularly like using it in the shower, i specifically got one that was waterproof, didnt want to get hurt lol. so yeah, i have worked out the settings and mostly just use the vibrating clit tickler cos the moving penis bit (is that what is called?) doesnt do much for me. im still working out what feels good.
in the shower i hold the vibe between my legs with the back of the dolphin shaped clit tickler pressed against my clit obviously. that feels good and i can wash my hair at the same time! nice! ive used it in bed a couple of times, when im home alone. it feels really good, but i feel like i dont know how to orgasm. i feel like all theis energy is building up and i dont know what to do with it or how to release it, so i stop. i cant go for very long, only about 10 mins. i kinda get bored sometimes and other times i feel like ive reached my limit. i guess it just takes practice and time and learning what feels good.
ill keep at it and maybe one day i will cum. heres hoping!
i was thinking of getting the book sex for one by betty dobson (i think thats her name), maybe that will help. any ideas?
ill keep trying and let you know how it goes....maybe ill put a pic of it on here....
night! xxoo
where do i start? i have used my pink vibrator about 4 or 5 times since i bought it, which is like once a day! i particularly like using it in the shower, i specifically got one that was waterproof, didnt want to get hurt lol. so yeah, i have worked out the settings and mostly just use the vibrating clit tickler cos the moving penis bit (is that what is called?) doesnt do much for me. im still working out what feels good.
in the shower i hold the vibe between my legs with the back of the dolphin shaped clit tickler pressed against my clit obviously. that feels good and i can wash my hair at the same time! nice! ive used it in bed a couple of times, when im home alone. it feels really good, but i feel like i dont know how to orgasm. i feel like all theis energy is building up and i dont know what to do with it or how to release it, so i stop. i cant go for very long, only about 10 mins. i kinda get bored sometimes and other times i feel like ive reached my limit. i guess it just takes practice and time and learning what feels good.
ill keep at it and maybe one day i will cum. heres hoping!
i was thinking of getting the book sex for one by betty dobson (i think thats her name), maybe that will help. any ideas?
ill keep trying and let you know how it goes....maybe ill put a pic of it on here....
night! xxoo
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
pre-first toy review post
hey guys, guess what?!?! i paid a visit to my local sex store (is that PC? lol) and yes i walked outta there with a vibrator (discreetly packaged in a brown paper bag! lol) so you will be very soon reading about adventures with my new pink and beautiful toy!
xxoo
xxoo
today is the day...
today is the day i have built up enough courage (and cash lol) to go out and buy a vibrator. i have decided on the relatively cheap 'my first vibe'. its purple i think and made for first timers like me :) i could save up more money and get something more extravagant but...i dont know if i like it yet, so im going to get the 29.95 one, hehe. i found a store that is close to me and hopefuly i wont see anyone i know, cos that would be weird. maybe ill just survey the scene today and see if its all clear and head back another day. i was going to go today cos i have an excuse to be out for a long period of time so i dont have to make something up about where im going...although i do need to go to the chemist.
this toy purhase is purely to enhance my self love techniques and enjoyment, and if i cum...well, ill be over the moon to say the least, but i dont expect it to happen for a while...like, a long while. no pressure eh suze!
so i will let you know how it all goes, so watch out for my first toy review lol!
moving on to other matters, when i bourght my new car they sent me out a gift cirtificate for a $550 photoshoot, which i thought was really nice, so today i am going down to see the photo ppl and talk about what i want....this could be interesting as im not overly creative or original, but hey, they are the experts and should be able to help! :P
so, ill also keep you posted on those matters too.
oh, last night i went and taught my first swimming lesson in like 2 months, it was soo good. there were two twin boys, and they were gorgeous! they had white blonde hair, chubby cheeks and beautiful white straight baby teeth. im teaching them again next week, so it will be good to see them again.
i taught four classes and they were mostly pretty good. one kid didnt listen to what i want saying and so i made him sit out while he waited for his turn to swim. he was pretty good after that. he was just really eager to please but kept forgetting my rules. he might be better next time.
im teaching on friday aswell, so that will be good. cant wait to get paid...$18.10 an hour is not bad, more than what i get at my other job! lol.
so, id better get ready for my photo consultation thing.
thanks for commenting guys, you support means the world to me.
have fun and be good!
xxoo
this toy purhase is purely to enhance my self love techniques and enjoyment, and if i cum...well, ill be over the moon to say the least, but i dont expect it to happen for a while...like, a long while. no pressure eh suze!
so i will let you know how it all goes, so watch out for my first toy review lol!
moving on to other matters, when i bourght my new car they sent me out a gift cirtificate for a $550 photoshoot, which i thought was really nice, so today i am going down to see the photo ppl and talk about what i want....this could be interesting as im not overly creative or original, but hey, they are the experts and should be able to help! :P
so, ill also keep you posted on those matters too.
oh, last night i went and taught my first swimming lesson in like 2 months, it was soo good. there were two twin boys, and they were gorgeous! they had white blonde hair, chubby cheeks and beautiful white straight baby teeth. im teaching them again next week, so it will be good to see them again.
i taught four classes and they were mostly pretty good. one kid didnt listen to what i want saying and so i made him sit out while he waited for his turn to swim. he was pretty good after that. he was just really eager to please but kept forgetting my rules. he might be better next time.
im teaching on friday aswell, so that will be good. cant wait to get paid...$18.10 an hour is not bad, more than what i get at my other job! lol.
so, id better get ready for my photo consultation thing.
thanks for commenting guys, you support means the world to me.
have fun and be good!
xxoo
Monday, January 29, 2007
three days into blogging and i already feel more liberated and free, funny how that happens eh?
i have soo much i could put here, and i have a bunch of ideas so they will hopefully come to life soon.
i got a brazilian wax today, it hurt soooo bad. i think i bleed a little. the weather was pretty warm and the wax was just sticking to my skin, rather than being ripped off, it was quite painful. but the beautician was very good and really easy to chat too, so that helped a little. it has never hurt that much b4. i got a bit lazy and let the hair grow a bit too long but i have since learnt my lesson and now i am booked in in four weeks so this experience is not repeated.
ive been thinking about my recent lesbian adventure. im not sure how i feel about it. i dont regret it, i wouldnt have done it if i didnt want to.
she initiated the contact. she kinda cornered me and said i want to kiss you, can i? at first i said no, cos i was scared and i didnt think she was serious. but she seemed sincere. she is the kind of person that gets what they want, when they want, i think mostly from guys and girls in the physical sense. she was pretty persuasive and believable when she said she wanted me.
i kinda agreed cos i was flattered and she wouldnt take no for an answer.
the focus was on her because it kinda gave me the power to direct what went on. i could go or stop because it was my hand at play, you know? she also had long finger nails and that was a bit painful. she didnt really know what to do either, and im not saying im an expert but she didnt really have much of an idea.
so, i didnt mind that i didnt really get much of the attention. when im with a guy the focus is usually on me, and its all about how i feel and what i want. so it was different to be on the otherside of that. although i think cocks arent the prettiest things on the planet, i certainly enjoy how they feel. my last bf had trouble cumming when someone was giving him head and he said that i was pretty good at it, so i would like the try that again some time and see if i could make a guy cum by giving head.
i also want to cum. i never have. i chicken out. its something im still working on. its a little tricky without a bf. i masturbate quite often, but i dont cum, i find it relaxing and often do it b4 going to sleep. im interested in buying a vibrator but im too scared to go to a store or order one on the net, cos my mum picks up the mail, that would be tricky to explain why i got a package but didnt get anything! lol. so yeah, im still working on that. there are plenty of stores around my area but i dont want to get recognised.
i really want cock...like now. i dont go out that much, so that makes it kinda tricky to meet prospective partners, ill wait till uni goes back and see if their are any ppl there. ill let you know how it goes.
i think my next post will be about all my firsts, so that should be interesting. hope u enjoy it! and id love to hear about any of your sexual adventures.
i have soo much i could put here, and i have a bunch of ideas so they will hopefully come to life soon.
i got a brazilian wax today, it hurt soooo bad. i think i bleed a little. the weather was pretty warm and the wax was just sticking to my skin, rather than being ripped off, it was quite painful. but the beautician was very good and really easy to chat too, so that helped a little. it has never hurt that much b4. i got a bit lazy and let the hair grow a bit too long but i have since learnt my lesson and now i am booked in in four weeks so this experience is not repeated.
ive been thinking about my recent lesbian adventure. im not sure how i feel about it. i dont regret it, i wouldnt have done it if i didnt want to.
she initiated the contact. she kinda cornered me and said i want to kiss you, can i? at first i said no, cos i was scared and i didnt think she was serious. but she seemed sincere. she is the kind of person that gets what they want, when they want, i think mostly from guys and girls in the physical sense. she was pretty persuasive and believable when she said she wanted me.
i kinda agreed cos i was flattered and she wouldnt take no for an answer.
the focus was on her because it kinda gave me the power to direct what went on. i could go or stop because it was my hand at play, you know? she also had long finger nails and that was a bit painful. she didnt really know what to do either, and im not saying im an expert but she didnt really have much of an idea.
so, i didnt mind that i didnt really get much of the attention. when im with a guy the focus is usually on me, and its all about how i feel and what i want. so it was different to be on the otherside of that. although i think cocks arent the prettiest things on the planet, i certainly enjoy how they feel. my last bf had trouble cumming when someone was giving him head and he said that i was pretty good at it, so i would like the try that again some time and see if i could make a guy cum by giving head.
i also want to cum. i never have. i chicken out. its something im still working on. its a little tricky without a bf. i masturbate quite often, but i dont cum, i find it relaxing and often do it b4 going to sleep. im interested in buying a vibrator but im too scared to go to a store or order one on the net, cos my mum picks up the mail, that would be tricky to explain why i got a package but didnt get anything! lol. so yeah, im still working on that. there are plenty of stores around my area but i dont want to get recognised.
i really want cock...like now. i dont go out that much, so that makes it kinda tricky to meet prospective partners, ill wait till uni goes back and see if their are any ppl there. ill let you know how it goes.
i think my next post will be about all my firsts, so that should be interesting. hope u enjoy it! and id love to hear about any of your sexual adventures.
thanks
hey, its kinda late but i just want to say thanks to ppl for putting some comments on my blog, really made it worthwile. hopefully i will put some more stuff on here soon, so please keep visiting and giving me advice :) uni is going back soon so hopefully i will be able to keep you up to date with that.
thanks again. night...
thanks again. night...
Sunday, January 28, 2007
the first...of many things
the other night i had my first real lesbian experience. it was good but i still cant get over the feeling over a hardened cock rubbing against my tingling clit, nothing beats that. she was sweet, great body, not too bad at kissing, ive had better. she smokes, so it wasnt the best. she seems quite young and innocent, or so it seemed. it was an eye opening experience. i havent fingered someone else b4. i had it done to me and i know what it feels like to do it to myself, but not on someone else. its quite tricky. because she is writhing around and moaning and clearly enjoying it but i dont know where it feels good or if she likes it a different way...i guess i just found out what it feels like to be a guy lol. she was quite obliging when i asked her to do stuff. i lay her down on the bed upstairs and shut the door, i slid my hand down her tight jeans, after undoing the fly and button. they were very tight, and shaped her arse beautifully, but it made it difficult to access her wet pussy. i told her to take her jeans off and she did. she apologised for not shaving her cunt, but i didnt mind and i told her so. ive kissed girls b4 and ive talked about being with other chicks with my ex. it got him off and i kinda enjoyed the thrill of talking baout something so dirty. i like kinky dirty things. i like being bossy and demanding. i love the urgency in my partners voice when i deny them something, or tease them.
one time, out the front of my house, i was with my ex-bf and we were kissing and stuff. he wanted to finger me and i was really wet. i didnt let him. he was soooo hard and he begged me to grab his cock, i must have reacted too slow cos he grabbed my hand and shoved it down his pants and around his throbbing cock. i loved being with him. he was very good at what he did but i freak out when i feel a bit out of control, so sometimes i would bring our 'sessions' to a grinding halt when i felt scared.
anyway, i finger fucked this girl. my hand kinda hurt so pulled it out so i swap and she begged my to keep going "please dont stop" she moaned. she was breathing quickly and was almost squealing with delight. i felt kinda powerful. i like that feeling too. when you brush your hand across some guys cock and you hear him inhale sharply. i love that power. i love teasing. i love it when he went down on me. it was sooo good. he fingered my for ages. pumping in and out. i knew i was getting closer to orgasm because my hands had pins and needles. then my neck and ears began to tingle too. then the tingling pins and needles feeling spread across my stomach and i freaked out. i couldnt handle it. i felt out of control and i didnt like it. so i asked him to stop and he did after he threatened to keep going. he was determined to get me off but i couldnt relax and enjoy it.
im not sure how i feel about girls. i would never right off guys as potentials. i dont think i could be a complete lesbian and have no male contact. i love the power they have over me. in a second they could take what they want purely because of the muscle strength they possess. i enjoyed my time with the girl, but i didnt get off. i like thinking baout it but not acting on it. im not sure if it will happen again. maybe....we'll see i guess. i think maybe she wants to. and i guess i could do it again...i would rather get laid....but im not sure about that either. im psyching myself up to see my ex-bf in three weeks at uni. i havent seen him since b4 christmas so it will be interesting to have the same lects as him again...i wonder if he will come back to uni...anyway, thats another kettle of fish. i lost my virginity to him and he didnt love me at the time. he said he didnt. but then he grew to love me, and i kinda slowly stopped loving him...then he stopped loving me and we broke up. he wasnt man enough to stand up and say how he felt. so i kinda did the breaking up and that hurt. i really liked him and i wanted it to work but i guess it wasnt meant to be. i knew he would be my first after seeing him at uni for a while. there arent many guys in my course, so he wasnt hard to spot. after watching him for a while i felt confident that he would be my first. then he started talking to me, we had a few tuts together. then we decided to have coffee one night after class. he walked me to my car a couple of times. so we had coffee and sat and talked for ages, then as he went to leave we kissed and it was a really good kiss. i havent had many good ones like that. so yeah, we hung out a bit. i msged him to see if he wanted to catch up that weekend and he was going to a party and invited me along. i agreed and off we went. i was meant to drive home after we got back to his place but we went to bed and i didnt end up leaving til 7 the next morning. i managed to stay awake for 26 hours! quite an effort. i saw him at uni and a week later we were official. it lasted about 2 months in total b4 he decided he didnt like me anymore. i was pretty upset and cried my eyes out in mcdonalds while i waited for my mum to pick me up. we broke up on the way home from a footy match, so i got him to drop me off at maccas so i didnt have to stay in the car any longer than i had to.
so yeah, good to get all that off my chest.
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one time, out the front of my house, i was with my ex-bf and we were kissing and stuff. he wanted to finger me and i was really wet. i didnt let him. he was soooo hard and he begged me to grab his cock, i must have reacted too slow cos he grabbed my hand and shoved it down his pants and around his throbbing cock. i loved being with him. he was very good at what he did but i freak out when i feel a bit out of control, so sometimes i would bring our 'sessions' to a grinding halt when i felt scared.
anyway, i finger fucked this girl. my hand kinda hurt so pulled it out so i swap and she begged my to keep going "please dont stop" she moaned. she was breathing quickly and was almost squealing with delight. i felt kinda powerful. i like that feeling too. when you brush your hand across some guys cock and you hear him inhale sharply. i love that power. i love teasing. i love it when he went down on me. it was sooo good. he fingered my for ages. pumping in and out. i knew i was getting closer to orgasm because my hands had pins and needles. then my neck and ears began to tingle too. then the tingling pins and needles feeling spread across my stomach and i freaked out. i couldnt handle it. i felt out of control and i didnt like it. so i asked him to stop and he did after he threatened to keep going. he was determined to get me off but i couldnt relax and enjoy it.
im not sure how i feel about girls. i would never right off guys as potentials. i dont think i could be a complete lesbian and have no male contact. i love the power they have over me. in a second they could take what they want purely because of the muscle strength they possess. i enjoyed my time with the girl, but i didnt get off. i like thinking baout it but not acting on it. im not sure if it will happen again. maybe....we'll see i guess. i think maybe she wants to. and i guess i could do it again...i would rather get laid....but im not sure about that either. im psyching myself up to see my ex-bf in three weeks at uni. i havent seen him since b4 christmas so it will be interesting to have the same lects as him again...i wonder if he will come back to uni...anyway, thats another kettle of fish. i lost my virginity to him and he didnt love me at the time. he said he didnt. but then he grew to love me, and i kinda slowly stopped loving him...then he stopped loving me and we broke up. he wasnt man enough to stand up and say how he felt. so i kinda did the breaking up and that hurt. i really liked him and i wanted it to work but i guess it wasnt meant to be. i knew he would be my first after seeing him at uni for a while. there arent many guys in my course, so he wasnt hard to spot. after watching him for a while i felt confident that he would be my first. then he started talking to me, we had a few tuts together. then we decided to have coffee one night after class. he walked me to my car a couple of times. so we had coffee and sat and talked for ages, then as he went to leave we kissed and it was a really good kiss. i havent had many good ones like that. so yeah, we hung out a bit. i msged him to see if he wanted to catch up that weekend and he was going to a party and invited me along. i agreed and off we went. i was meant to drive home after we got back to his place but we went to bed and i didnt end up leaving til 7 the next morning. i managed to stay awake for 26 hours! quite an effort. i saw him at uni and a week later we were official. it lasted about 2 months in total b4 he decided he didnt like me anymore. i was pretty upset and cried my eyes out in mcdonalds while i waited for my mum to pick me up. we broke up on the way home from a footy match, so i got him to drop me off at maccas so i didnt have to stay in the car any longer than i had to.
so yeah, good to get all that off my chest.
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